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Brianne's avatar

Ohhh all of this, brings me right back to when I was a blogger only the scales have flipped…a bad pun of sorts I guess. And then if I may add another angle that I can’t figure out how to handle yet: I am one of the people that used to talk a lot about body positivity (and then felt like I was taking up too much space as a white woman in that area) and moved straight to body whatever is what I like to call it, and now I AM on Ozempic (and it is not at all what social media has shown me) and losing weight (slowly) and have this whole new guilt and also fear that people will eventually notice and comment on it. I’d love to think that our bodies are just the most boring things about us but even if we think that, everyone else is always thinking about them anyway. It’s all a mess, I’ll probably write about it ;)

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meaghan wray's avatar

It really is all a mess 😂 And you should totally write about if it feels right for you! Thanks for sharing your experience 🩷 I can understand the guilt you’re feeling, and wish it wasn’t that way.

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asad chishti's avatar

beautiful work and word smithery (as per usual)

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Sadaf Ahsan's avatar

Phew, I felt this so, so, SO deeply. I've also felt like everyone is getting smaller again (and wondered if that was just me imagining that and feeling bad about myself?!), and btw, a month ago I saw photos of myself and felt the same damn way like you mentioned experiencing yourself, and have been stuck in that. It's such a bitter cycle for me. And at the same time, part of me has never been happier and felt better about my body, and that also makes it feel like I *shouldn't* ever want to be smaller, that that's irresponsible to feel...but then those periods sneak up...it never ends. "I want to exist in a world that doesn’t see my body" -- PLEASE. If only. Thank you for the therapy and making me feel less alone!

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meaghan wray's avatar

Adore you! It's a vicious cycle, for sure. It also can be so confusing to both have never felt better in your body, but also still feel... shit sometimes? What freakin' gives.

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